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Instead of Starting a Blog I am Taking a Break From Writing
Seriously. I probably only write to grapple with my dark side like the world definitely wants to kill you. Not enitirely true… or false. And well oops I don’t have much advice on not getting killed by the world other than like I avoid people and it seems to work. I believe in a culture of do nothings who just want carnage shows of someone or ones being unofficially and most certainly death marched into the after life. I believe it’s animal instinct and these carnage seekers have some kind of gut feeling your or my death from shit years of circumstance will somehow help them to survive and live out their animal purpose of doing what they feel. I also believe in ignoring said world and make believing everything and everyone is somehow not a carnage seeking lazing around mostly person. Those kid idiots surrounding kid idiots throwing possible death blows at each others heads and bodies all grow out of that behavior and become safe good people. Apply that people avoidance and it’s weird how someone could be next door or down the street wishing the ill and it’s hardly felt. So while some Hannibal Lector could be sizing me up from across the street the most it could probably affect me is thinking that Hannibal guy is a weirdo or something.
And with writing as I have for the past few months my people avoiding desires are being dishonored some. I don’t dislike people since I live in fantasy land where maybe you chopped the cherry tree, or almost had a gun accident when you were a kid and you admitted to it and took responsibility and became not perfect and still dang close so close I get to be only grateful for your goodness hopefully. So that’s how I write to a world of such awesomely good people, only I got reminded this morning of the genius notion people have of “What good are you?” It’s also lamented on in a Vampire Weekend song like, “Am I good for nothing?” And those notions bring me to why I think I write or what I am in part trying to convey with my recent writings. And that’s my perspective that one should expect to be able to make simple efforts and constant efforts in life and expect to have a pretty good and rather consistently getting better life. And part of all that is dealing with an evil “What good are you?” question asking loser world that has no goodness to offer people with it’s prodding.
